At first, I do not care. I think I do not care.

I do not know anything about a subject. Maybe I do not have time. Maybe the decision has to be made too quickly. Maybe I do not dare to speak out loud.

Then others choose for me. Based on their preferences, thoughts, experience and values, based on how they want to see me.

And one day I notice this is not what suits me.

Then I regret not being part of that decision, from which I withdrew myself. Angry on myself for taking sidelines. For not raising my concerns. For not feeling that this is not, what I want, earlier.

This is how life teaches me to listen. To myself. Not to hurry to accept defaults. And to take part. In a life. In my life.

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